So about that ghosting situation

Long story short: I felt my joy wasn't worth posting.

Hear me out, though.

When I first starting writing at IamMichelleRena, I was deep in the trenches of healing. There was anger, sorrow, crying, pain, and all the other things associated with trying to understand how you ended up where you are and if you can get out of it. Not saying there weren't happy times sprinkled in, but let's be real. Your girl was going through.

I don't do well with change at all, despite the fact that I have moved every 4 - 5 years since 2000. The move to Germany in 2022 felt like the worst to date.

Thankfully, things slowly started to shift for the better a few months after we arrived. I got a job. I created a new circle and figured out a gym routine. The food situation was still mid because...it's German food.

2023 was going well...then I lost my daddy in June.

And the job ended 31 Dec.

2024 was a mixed bag, because in typical Mon fashion, I had a mini spiral.

I wrote about that period here: 2024...where did you go, Mon?

See? A lil pain makes the words flow like water.

But truth be told, Mon of Germany was living! A girl's trip to Ghana, house parties with the families we connected with, my first cruise and hookah bar, plus clubbing way too late in Luxembourg. Bitch, I went to Paris 3 times!!! One time was Disneyland Paris, but still.

And the first half of 2025 kept the party going! I loved my job and coworkers (most of them). Almost every Friday after work at the Eifel Club with my coworkers and favorite bartenders. Hey, DJ and Kayla! Wings and Pizza Hut were a regular occurrence.

I was finally standing the light again, but some reason, I didn't feel like I should post it. The not so small voice in my head made me feel like no one cared. Looking back that thought was ridiculous, because I love seeing posts about everyone else's shenanigans, but we are our own worst enemy.

I guess I figured that if I wasn't semi-miserable, there wasn't anything worth writing about.

After a come to Jesus with a few of my friends that don't hesitate to check me, Imma do better.

2nd post of 2026. See? It's looking up already. 😏 Now I could just stop hesitating to click publish...