2026 - Revelation

Q2 2026 is underway, and this year is on my ass.

I am a person who is very self-aware. While I am often in conflict with myself, I know how I move. Being self-aware with no integration has been a key theme. And I'm sick about it. I find myself talking in circles simply because old Mon would never say or do something that could hurt the feelings of someone she loves. 2026 has sat "what about your feelings?" in my chest.

Things I was able to brush off or sweep under the rug gnaw at me. I am no longer able to wear my annoyance well. My irritation seeps into every corner of my life. So in March, I decided it was time to get back on someone's couch. Went online and found a therapist that moves like I do with my friends. Straight shot, no chaser. Every post therapy gab session with my besties usually includes "I like her" after I mention a grenade she lobbed into my lap.

But as I tell anyone who is thinking about seeing a therapist, if you aren't ready to face yourself and be honest, don't waste them folks time and your money. So here we are, unraveling my feelings of inadequacies, unworthiness, and my tendencies to overgive in relationships due to fears of abandonment.

This shit sucks, apparently moving the way I always have isn't going to work in whatever is next in my life.

Once you know, you can't unknow. So be careful when you ask for things to be revealed, if you aren't prepared to deal with the revelation.