So...apparently I just needed a nap!

Sleep deprivation will have you looking real crazy and acting real foolish!

Yesterday, I was irritated because I have been running off adrenaline all week and the walls came tumbling down hard and fast. From working (like really working) the whole entire at work. Add in limited bathroom breaks and skipping lunch every day trying to complete all of the tasks, completing a therapy session, running errands, dropping off kids, picking up kids, and boom...down goes Frazier!

Baybeh, your girl had a full blown meltdown like a toddler. Overstimulated to the max, hungry, and sleepy. I finally broke down while eating some Chick-Fil-A and listening to my littles talk and I screamed "I just want to go to bed!" My daughter looked at me and asked "what's stopping you?"

I was taken aback, but I was far from upset, because for real...who and what was stopping me from just taking a shower and laying my grown self down! It was already well after 9 o'clock but still early compared to the after midnight turn in times I have had since last week. My brain was so overloaded from the constant worrying and decision making of the day that I didn't process the simple truth that I could opt of at any moment. No one was keeping me from calling it quits but me!

I finished my food and my blog post, took a shower, and literally collapsed for the night. I slept hard and woke up refreshed enough to complete some major tasks today and had an amazing presentation recording with a literacy mastermind! I have to stop stretching myself so thin while expecting myself to operate at maximum throttle. I am only one Michelle and I need to preserve and protect myself at all costs.

Here's the thing...you can't perform at your best when you don't get an adequate amount of rest. I have been trying to busy myself and fill my days with all of the tasks that I HAVE to do so I can do what I NEED to do and finish with what I WANT to do. This week's productivity levels have been extremely high, but at what cost. I don't feel burnout yet, however the goal isn't to get within range of burnout, it's to balance the day and avoid burnout altogether.

I still haven't figured this adulting thing out and I am 40+ but I do know what I don't want and what I am not doing and that's overexerting my energy on things and people that deplete me.

Gotta stay focused on my cup of JOE! (Joy Over Everything)

I talked about unsubscribing earlier this week and I am adding crazy daily checklists to the list!

Today's glimmer: I am finding Joy in posting TikTok content again!

Don't be a joy thief, if you can't add to it...don't you dare try to take it away!

Love y'all,

MichelleRena